Every now and again, one of the authors of a web journal will publish a '100 things about me'. I can't promise you 100 things but let's see if we can get to 50...
1. I am nuts for Chris Botti the trumpet player. I can't get enough of his latest CD.
2. I can become agitated if I feel I have been given too many things even though I love them.
3. I am in constant struggle with my desire for a piece of cake.
4. I really do need eight hours of sleep a day to function well.
5. I feel very guilty if I don't walk the dogs because I know they rely on me.
6. I adore to be in the house alone.
7. I write for my own pleasure and to not be allowed to write would be a harsh punishment.
8. If I care about you, if you touch my heart, I care about you forever.
9. I have collected all the cards my husband and children have written to me over the years.
10. If I can listen to music and cook a meal alone, that sends me into a blissful state.
11. Wearing pants seems wrong.
12. Sometimes, happiness just comes over me like a wave and for no apparent reason.
13. I'm always working towards minimalism in my house.
14. I love going to the movies, especially 'arthouse' movies.
15. I love to giggle. I love to be with funny people.
16. Bathtime is very precious to me. I like to write, think, chill out by the bath while the water draws.
17. I have a large scarf collection. I love collecting beautiful fabrics.
18. Being tied up tight is bliss.
19. I love to drive in the country on my own.
20. My acrylic nails are for life. They are a part of me now.
21. If a friendship fails, and that's very rare, it is hugely upsetting to me.
22. I am trying to teach myself to be a runner.
23. I probably do have a rebellious streak deep down.
24. I try to make everyone happy and settled so that I can do my own thing after that.
25. I love to travel, even if it is just to a different neighbourhood.
26. I'd adore to do up my house and make it beautiful.
27. Italy is my idea of heaven.
28. My Internet friends know me much better than my RL friends
29 If I'm feeling upset, I go iron a few shirts.
30. I do deals with myself. "Agree with him, no matter what he says..."
31 I've always been into pornography/erotica. My husband noticed it very early on.
32. I tend to talk a lot or hardly at all, depending on my fragility or otherwise.
33. I found the erotic zones of my body at about 4 years of age.
34. I bent over and imagined being spanked at about that time too.
35. When given loads of praise, there's nothing I can't attempt or do.
36. I like little adventures, getting away from the ordinary.
37. I have a temper that is rarely seen but can be ignited by a sense of abandonment.
38. Signing up for my writing course is one of the best decisions I ever made.
39. I'm eternally grateful I didn't take advice given to me to terminate my last pregnancy.
40. My children are my greatest achievement.
41. I'm very lucky to have married such a caring and devoted man.
42. I'm a discerning shopper on the lookout for a bargain and something beautiful or special.
43. I love open fires and verandas.
44. I have a Kindle but I still prefer to hold the book.
45. My indulgence is buying flowers every two weeks after my Friday yoga class.
46. I like to read the newspaper in a coffee shop rather than at home.
47. Progress on my house and garden is what turns me on.
48. Writing is a good profession/occupation for me because I tend towards introversion.
49. I love to visit churches and even stay for the service wherever I am.
50. Yoga and meditation have been a great blessing and calmed my emotions right down.
Gosh! How do you get to 100? Maybe one day, I can try writing 51-100.
1. I am nuts for Chris Botti the trumpet player. I can't get enough of his latest CD.
2. I can become agitated if I feel I have been given too many things even though I love them.
3. I am in constant struggle with my desire for a piece of cake.
4. I really do need eight hours of sleep a day to function well.
5. I feel very guilty if I don't walk the dogs because I know they rely on me.
6. I adore to be in the house alone.
7. I write for my own pleasure and to not be allowed to write would be a harsh punishment.
8. If I care about you, if you touch my heart, I care about you forever.
9. I have collected all the cards my husband and children have written to me over the years.
10. If I can listen to music and cook a meal alone, that sends me into a blissful state.
11. Wearing pants seems wrong.
12. Sometimes, happiness just comes over me like a wave and for no apparent reason.
13. I'm always working towards minimalism in my house.
14. I love going to the movies, especially 'arthouse' movies.
15. I love to giggle. I love to be with funny people.
16. Bathtime is very precious to me. I like to write, think, chill out by the bath while the water draws.
17. I have a large scarf collection. I love collecting beautiful fabrics.
18. Being tied up tight is bliss.
19. I love to drive in the country on my own.
20. My acrylic nails are for life. They are a part of me now.
21. If a friendship fails, and that's very rare, it is hugely upsetting to me.
22. I am trying to teach myself to be a runner.
23. I probably do have a rebellious streak deep down.
24. I try to make everyone happy and settled so that I can do my own thing after that.
25. I love to travel, even if it is just to a different neighbourhood.
26. I'd adore to do up my house and make it beautiful.
27. Italy is my idea of heaven.
28. My Internet friends know me much better than my RL friends
29 If I'm feeling upset, I go iron a few shirts.
30. I do deals with myself. "Agree with him, no matter what he says..."
31 I've always been into pornography/erotica. My husband noticed it very early on.
32. I tend to talk a lot or hardly at all, depending on my fragility or otherwise.
33. I found the erotic zones of my body at about 4 years of age.
34. I bent over and imagined being spanked at about that time too.
35. When given loads of praise, there's nothing I can't attempt or do.
36. I like little adventures, getting away from the ordinary.
37. I have a temper that is rarely seen but can be ignited by a sense of abandonment.
38. Signing up for my writing course is one of the best decisions I ever made.
39. I'm eternally grateful I didn't take advice given to me to terminate my last pregnancy.
40. My children are my greatest achievement.
41. I'm very lucky to have married such a caring and devoted man.
42. I'm a discerning shopper on the lookout for a bargain and something beautiful or special.
43. I love open fires and verandas.
44. I have a Kindle but I still prefer to hold the book.
45. My indulgence is buying flowers every two weeks after my Friday yoga class.
46. I like to read the newspaper in a coffee shop rather than at home.
47. Progress on my house and garden is what turns me on.
48. Writing is a good profession/occupation for me because I tend towards introversion.
49. I love to visit churches and even stay for the service wherever I am.
50. Yoga and meditation have been a great blessing and calmed my emotions right down.
Gosh! How do you get to 100? Maybe one day, I can try writing 51-100.
Churches not so much, church yards, another story altogether.
ReplyDeleteItaly as an idea of heaven is....interesting!
A question if I may? Over what distance are you attempting to teach yourself to run?
An interesting list, telling in parts. I am sure you would have no problem in adding substantially to that, if you felt so inclined.
By all means don't bother to post this if you feel it is off subject so to speak. Just a little information about Italy of which you might be unaware.
ReplyDeleteAn Italian cemetary has niches in walls which contain the ashes or bones of the dead. It is quite common to see by many of these niches a pargetted representation of things that were important in the life of that person. So we can see that Alberto Mancini for example, had a strange liking for tractors. Marco Pedicini's pargetting is of a hunter complete with one or two flying ducks. And so it goes on.
There are of course restraints regarding size, so some thought is needed to give a flavour of that person. I have no qualms regarding my own death, therefore I already know what my pargetting should be, I must remember to draw it though, otherwise who will know?
Of course it is not really important, but it adds a dimension to a stroll, don't you think?
You are an interesting person.
ReplyDeleteI like introverts--I married one. Most consider me an extrovert, but sometimes I think I could go either way.
Isn't it interesting how much we can reveal of ourselves on an anonymous blog?
Interesting that you imagined being spanked when you are four years old. I've always believed spankos are born spankos and the question is when they realize it. You obviously realized it at a young age.
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Anon: It hasn't always been this way with me and churches, although it was never a chore to be in a church for me. These days, I can feel very touched, very humbled to be in a church. I loved visiting churches when I was in London on my own. Like you, my husband doesn't mind a quick look-see but he definitely doesn't want to stay for the service, whereas I do. I didn't realize that about Italian cemeteries and I think it is a lovely idea. Thank you for telling me. The next time I am in Italy I shall pay special attention and look out for them. We visited Italy last year and I'd love to spend time there every year. We were in the Chianti area of Tuscany for about a week and I particularly remember Castellina in Chianti as the most enchanting town. I was so sorry to hear of earthquakes near there recently.
ReplyDeleteI've never had a good relationship with running. At school I tended to be way back at the tail of the field in the cross country event. In the past few years I had a (shared) personal trainer who would make me run but in the past few months I take the dogs to a big park and I walk so far and then run so far and try to run a bit further each time. If I could run around the park or the block or around the neighborhood and back, I'd be thrilled.
Mick: I know what you mean. I can be perfectly happy around a crowd or at an event at certain times so I don't look all that much of an introvert but in my heart, I know I am. If you are more extroverted than your wife, that seems to be a great combination. One of the reasons my husband was so appealing to me was because I knew he'd help me cope with the world. He's the one that took me overseas and assured me I could live overseas and do all sorts of things that I wasn't at all sure that I could do.
FD: I remember it vividly for some reason. I can see my old bedroom and bathroom as if I were back there. I felt I had to keep those thoughts secret from every living soul. I thought it made me sick or demented or whatever. It's been a part of my personality right from the start.
Vesta
ReplyDeleteI have made such lists and posted them in my journal and I find them not only fun for myself but for others just as I have found reading yours to be entertaining as well as informative. As for what you shared:
No. 3. A constant struggle for cake - oh me too. Me too. Cake is the dessert I crave most of all.
No. 11 Wearing pants seems wrong to you how interesting and although I understand why I actually find I feel the absolute sexiest, prettiest and sexual when I adorn trousers, especially jeans. I know, so many gentlemen are cringing as I type that.
No 19. Driving alone in the country - Oh I adore driving with myself in the country especially old back roads listening to whatever music fills my soul that day.
No 35. Given loads of praise you can accomplish anything - I feel the opposite. When given praise I feel embarrassed want to become as small as possible.
No 37. Your temper. I have never witnessed it; however, seeing as how passionate you are I absolutely can believe this. My temper is rather extreme when it shows its ugly head as well which is why I try everyday to control it.
No 39. What an amazing decision you made.
No 44. Kindle vs. book - I am with you. I want to feel the pages and smell the years of life the book has already lived.
Thank you for sharing these facts with us all.
~a
goodgirl: Re pants, I've never really worn pants much. I *never* wore them to work and no body told me not to, it was just my preference. Occasionally, I do put on a pair of pants but not two days in a row because I'm ready by then to get back into a skirt or a dress. I can't explain it but you-know-who also left his mark, of course!
ReplyDeleteRe praise: I don't make a big deal about praise, as in you may not be able to detect I am touched by praise. I am quiet about it. But, without praise I can't do extra special things. I never believed I could ski but this American man took me aside from the skiing group and gave me heaps and heaps of praise and encouragement and taught me to ski. That's when I knew for sure that praise was the secret ingredient. To get out of my comfort zone I need to know that someone is following my progress and is very proud of me.
Re temper, yes it's the passion thing. I am very passionate. I am pleased to say that my temper is very rarely seen and that's the case even more so now than ever before. If I am going to act illogically or impulsively it is because I feel abandoned or just terribly hurt. But, very few people get to see this; one or two. I think I have to care a LOT before I get to this stage so very few people ever see it.
Re the last pregnancy: Yes, it was a tough time. They were describing the termination process and I was sick to my stomach. I made my own very personal decision to proceed with the pregnancy and it turned out marvelously.
It was fun to write this list. It goes part of the way towards RG's suggestion that we explore our own strengths and weaknesses so that characters we create are also well rounded.
The earthquakes here have been very bad indeed, devastating would not be too strong a word. Rather surprising too as this area is not really prone to seismic activity. Under these circumstances qualities of leadership and of course obedience, become extremely important.
ReplyDeleteHow sad it is that submissive girls so often feel that their thoughts, desires, needs are shameful or demented. A trained girl is really being taught to reach her true desired potential. For the trainer it brings immense satisfaction to see them blossom.
Anon: Oh, how sad! It is such a beautiful area of the world and the photos I have seen do indeed paint a picture of devastation. My very best wishes to you and everyone there as you cope with the situation.
ReplyDeleteIt's quite true that submissive girls often feel quite shamed by the thoughts that go through their minds but I think the Internet has made things easier. When I realized that I was merely one of thousands who had similar kind of thoughts it eased my mind immediately and allowed me to 'come out'.
I certainly believe that it brings immense pleasure to the trainer to see a girl reach her potential; for her to feel ease within herself. And, I do feel an ease within myself. I am comfortable with who I am and what I want. It's just remotely possible that I may be a little greedy because I tend to seek a bit more intensity and regularity in my life as to those needs. When my submissive soul gets to surface on a regular basis, nothing feels as good as that.
Thank you for your kind best wishes, it is appreciated. I am keen not to outstay my welcome, I will just say that at the worst we were having 2 major quakes a day and up to 170 after shocks. I can say that my charges behaved very well indeed and carried out my instructions, I was pleased with them. It was quite tiring however to be constantly re-evaluating conditions and situations. But that is when we must come to the fore!
ReplyDeleteJust one more thing and then I shall leave you in peace....for a while. Submissives and dominants can no more help what they are than a dog can help being a dog, or a wolf a wolf. You are happiest when you are allowed to show your submission because that is who you are. Being who we are in this respect is healthy, not greedy.
Just my opinion obviously.
Anon: My God, I can barely imagine the trauma, so similar to what the people of Christchurch in New Zealand have had to endure. Hopefully, things will stabilize soon and life will get back to an even keel.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your generous comment. I am indeed happiest when I can show my submission. There is no doubt about that in my mind. It is heartening to be understood.