Just do it

Whoever ran the Nike campaign, 'Just do it' really knew what they were on about. When the children have put up a defence as to why something hasn't been done, I will say, "Just do it, all right!" You can't really argue with that. Just do it!

In many ways, the dominant person is saying just that, although that particular terminology is not necessarily used. He or she is saying that the task needs to be done - no excuses, no apologies. Just do it.

Although submissive in nature, in that I want to please and I want to feel the strength and power of the dominant over me, I can experience resistance. (Stop laughing, you guys!!) It's the million dollar question as to why this happens and I wish it were not so. I'm certainly not looking to pull the wool over the dominant's eyes. If he asks, I tell him straight that I haven't got around to that particular task yet. I finding telling a lie almost impossible and distressingly uncomfortable. I would do it to save someone else, but not myself.

Part of me wonders if I am (sub-consciously) asking the dominant to come down hard on me. Praise is divine but to feel the power in full, one has to get him a little peeved. I really doubt this. I certainly don't have that as a conscious thought and I loathe being in trouble. One can feel so desolate in the doghouse.

Earlier today, having felt what I think might be best categorized as the dominant's disgust at my inability to follow through on a perfectly simple daily task whilst away, I gave myself a good talking to. Well, Vesta, why? Why didn't you just do it? There is no acceptable answer. I chose very poorly. I just didn't get around to it, even though by not doing it, I hurt myself.

One dominant friend once said to me a while back, "You have made your bed, and now you must lie in it." Well, that pulled me up with a round turn. We talk often and that was really the first telling off I had received. Listen, I did. If I make my bed, then I must lie in it. It's time to grow up!

Earlier today, I was summarily "dismissed". So naughty, that banishment was the only cure. 'And, let her have a good think about it', I could imagine him saying to himself. But, it's not my way to sit passively and do nothing, awaiting the lecture which will surely come. A girl must do something to ease her guilty mind. And so, I've written the book report overdue. I have watched the video clip assigned me, and I am nearly finished with drawing lines through some items of a list that was expected to land on his desk some weeks ago. If only I had owned up that I don't know how to draw lines through items on a list, my behaviour might have been looked on in a better light.

What can I say? I am recalcitrant at times; a perpetual rule breaker. But the times they are a changing. It's the new me. I'm going to assuage this guilt and kiss the doghouse goodbye. I'm going to...

Just do it.

Yayayayayay.