90 days

 I've not been a person who worries too much about New Year resolutions. It did, however, occur to me today that if I were to nominate a period of time, and the time in mind is 90 days, what could I achieve in that time?

In today's political world 90 days sounds like an eternity but in fact it's a rather short period of time - maybe 13 weeks. That's really no time at all. It might be interesting to record the goals, the challenges and achievements of a time period like this. Maybe not a lot changes on the outside, maybe it does, but most interesting, what might change on the inside?

In fact, yesterday I did a lot of work in a single hour. I was led into trance again and we explored the older me, the one close to death, who advised the 60 something me.  That was cool. However, it led to a new feeling, I explained, because my mother was close to the end of her life and beyond being able to say the things that I would love to hear. There was sadness around that.

Back I went down and created for myself a different end to this story where she expressed her love, her pride, her delight in having raised us and watch us live our lives. That was lovely.

This work is complete, we believe. There will be a check-in in 90 days and that has me wondering, what will I be like in 90 days? Will I have grown, will I be content, will I have some new endeavour in which to express creativity?

I am thinking of the Truman Show here and wondering what it would be like to wake up with no history? That's not exactly dementia. My mother has forgotten big slices of her life. She has returned to her childhood with her mother and lives quite happily there. She has taken a few things with her, like her dog who isn't alive, but in her mind, she is. It's all a bit jumbled but it makes sense to her and that's all that matters.

What if we lived in a universe where there was no remembered past and we woke up fresh every morning, ceasing the day? That sounds a bit like that strange series I started watching where the workers forget what they did at work. Hmm

What I mean is, imagine if there really was just 'Now'? 

'Imagine all the people living life in peace."

Anyways, enough ramblings, let's see.